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First post in how long now? [03 Feb 2008|03:33am]
You can thank Jackie Boston for the inspiration to post this gem.

Fitter, Happier, more Productive
comfortable, not drinking too much
regular exercise at the gym, 3 days a week
getting on better with your associate employee contemporaries
at ease
eating well, no more microwaved dinners and saturated fats
a patient, better driver
a safer car, baby smiling in back seat
sleeping well, no bad dreams
no paranoia
careful to all animals, never washing spiders down the plug hole
keep in contact with old friends, enjoy a drink now and then
will frequently check credit in moral bank, hole in wall
favors for favors
fond, but not in love
charity standing orders
on Sundays ring road supermarket
no killing moths or putting boiling water on the ants
car wash, also on Sundays
no longer afraid of the dark or midday shadows
nothing so ridiculously teenage and desperate
nothing so childish
at a better pace, slower and more calculated
no chance of escape
now self-employed
concerned, but powerless
an empowered and informed member of society
pragmatism, not idealism
will not cry in public
less chance of illness
tires that grip in the wet, shot of baby strapped in back seat
a good memory, still cries at a good film
still kisses with saliva
no longer empty and frantic like a cat tied to a stick that's driven into frozen winter shit
the ability to laugh at weakness
healthier and more productive
like a pig in a cage, on antibiotics

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[23 Jul 2006|12:29am]
[ mood | Disgruntled ]

I have a major case of swamp ass right now.

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[13 Jul 2006|03:08am]
It's a true story that I haven't updated this thing for a very long time.
But that's okay because I'm an even bigger slave to all sorts of culture now and use my myspace blog instead to vent out all of my stupid little rantings. You can blame Ali for getting me started on that thing.

So what I want all of you to do is subscribe to that blog of mine. I know there's a lot of babbling bullshit in everything that I write, but I'm going on a pretentious limb and saying that some of the trash that comes out of my head actually makes some sense and may even be useful to some people. And even if you don't find anything good in my writing(which is perfectly acceptable), then at least it makes a good read for the sake of entertainment.

I want feedback on my life.
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Mankind Never Learns [01 Jun 2006|11:20pm]
[ mood | energetic ]

So haha and Voila! I once again make a post that you have undoubtably been aching to see for a while now.

Let's see. On my mind at the moment is the fact that I feel fucking amazing at the current moment and I really couldn't say why. I'm almost positive it has nothing to do with my mindset or anything like that, it's more a physical thing. I feel energetic and capable of doing things, going out and just being the old(younger) me. It feels nice and I'm afraid that it won't last, but oh well gotta enjoy it while it does.

Things are set in motion to allow many much swimming outtings this summer which is great. I know for a fact that one of the best years in my life had a lot to do with the fact that I went swimming with a good group of my friends almost every night. We went because we had nothing better to do, and it turned out being the best thing we could have done to make the summer worth it. If I can have a summer like that again I definately see myself finally crawling out of my hermit hole for the first time in years and living it up. That's just another reason to be glad that I quit that parasite of a game, because none of these plans would be possible.

So at the moment I'm just chilling out in my room, fans a blazing. Just cleaned the room quick style before I sat down here, because once I take this seat I'm usually plastered to it for the rest of the night, sans a great act of will.

Anyhow, hope to write again soon. Yet with the frequency I've said anything in here in the past, I wouldn't hold your breath.

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[04 Nov 2005|11:38pm]
My Day. I've been schooled in the art of choking. Worked a 10 hour shift, and it went by much faster than a 5 hour shift I had earlier in the week. Sat on my ass for the remainder of the day and enjoyed every second of it.

My Week. Not working overtime for the first time in a month. Got two days off this week for the first time in equally as long. Week has been good. A lot of Lost. A lot of sickness. A lot of pain. A lot of Crystal. Take a wild guess at which two are the good ones.

My Month. October was one hell of a month, from start to finish. The likes of which I still haven't yet recovered from.
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[09 Oct 2005|11:54pm]
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[09 Oct 2005|11:42pm]
Just feel kinda stupid right now. A little incapable.
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[01 Oct 2005|04:11am]
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[25 Sep 2005|11:11pm]
[ mood | Fatalistic ]

I wonder where I would have been now if I hadn't stopped shutting myself away, if I hadn't returned to work, to friends, and to "life".
If I had simply remained confined to my house with little or no contact with anyone, maybe I'd still be sleeping like a baby.
Maybe my mind wouldn't have had a chance to back myself into this corner of paranoia, skepticism, and god knows what else.
I would never go so far as to say that I was happy at that time, but the calm was welcome after the years of being(allowing myself to be) used by everyone. I've brought this life upon myself through my own decisions.

I'm such an incredible liar, which will make all of this so very easy for me.
I just can't help but keep thinking that it's so unnecessary.

I'd just like to get the car thing and all my debt squared away so I can concentrate on starting a new life elsewhere.
I doubt that'll do me any good, as it didn't the last time, but god willing I've got at least forty years left in me and I'll be damned if I'm going to sit in a puddle of shit when there's so many clean slates elsewhere just waiting for me.

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[24 Sep 2005|01:01pm]
Let's see, a few things happened yesterday...
Ate blueberry bagel and drank ice coffee. Screamed obscenities inside City Hall. Picked out a car. Took out a car loan. Scored 36 million in Simpsons pinball in just one token as I was leaving CEC with my check. Arranged for the car to be insured when I buy it. Bought spaghetti and meatballs from Espresso's. Drank Mountain Dew and ate my spaghetti while having a terrible night in WoW, but I had those two things so I was okay with it. After not really wanting to play anymore, took off to Denny's and did some recreational driving. Came home and passed out almost immediately.

Yea, the car is ugly. That's cool with me though. It was inexpensive and it'll last me longer than any car I've owned to date. I like Nissans and it's also a Sentra, so this will be the second one of those that I've owned. Going to be tight on money for the next month or so, but it's worth it I think. I'm a veritable expert at money conservation anyways.

Good day all in all. Chances are I will be screaming more obscenities in City Hall sometime soon. I didn't talk about as much as I would have liked.
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[23 Sep 2005|08:19am]
[ mood | I just woke up, murderous mood ]

Hah, I've got it. I'm going to post in here AND there, with different posts not the same ones. Mix it up a little.
Pretty much give myself that much more to do while I'm online so I'm not so vacant all the time, yessssssssss.

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[20 Sep 2005|11:25pm]
[ mood | discontent ]

Work was plain. I'm not really calm anymore. Nope.

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[20 Sep 2005|03:48pm]
I actually got some sleep last night. I didn't think it was going to be possible with my mind being all fucked up like it has been lately, but I guess all of that "clarifying" last night helped.
Because I got decent sleep, today at work wasn't so bad. Did everything according to schedule and whatnot, and it was quiet with only two other people on besides me. I'm tired now, probably because I was thinking a shit load in all that calmness at work. Anyways, I knew this would happen but, I'm going back into work at 7 until close to help Kim with the kitchen. Even though it rained, I don't see it being hard. Whatever, it's hours and I have nothing better to do with my time.
I kinda just want to sit and relax though. I finally feel kinda calm and all I want to do is just sit down and enjoy it for however long it lasts.
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[19 Sep 2005|03:55am]
All this twisting and dodging will take me down eventually. I could really go for a straight explaination of what the hell is going on, but I don't think I'm going to get it. I've got my imagination doing all the work and though it's probably right as usual, I still don't like to make assumptions. I like to know the straight truth from the sources.

I woke up at midnight, fell back asleep and woke up again around now. I guess I should stay awake and find something to eat. All this lack of eating is probably what's forcing me to oversleep. Taking a suggestion I picked up a chocolate chip muffin from Dunkin Donuts before work this morning, brought that sucker home, put some butter on it and heated it up. Son of a bitch that thing was good. Definately think I'm going to eat out for breakfast more often, maybe even get a few actual meals in there if I can find anyone to go to the 50/50 with me. Sit down meals are no fun alone. I have been skipping breakfast because we have nothing to eat in my house. Been thinking of filling my own cabinets, but pretty sure french toast, pancakes, bacon, sausage, maple syrup, hot chocolate all sound so much better than cereal.

Talking about nothing. I guess I don't do that enough in here.

I'm hungry.
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[15 Sep 2005|02:30am]
Pretty much neutral on all fronts. Got the apathy kickin in high gear.
My sleeping habits took a turn for the worse. I'm probably going to get fired from this job soon because of it.
I loved having insomnia.
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[08 Sep 2005|01:56am]
Yea definately feeling that old Sunoco era mentallity coming back. Given what I was wishing for not a half a year ago I guess that would be considered a good thing in a totally fucked up sort of way.
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[08 Sep 2005|12:00am]
Felt strange driving tonight. Had an anxiety attack. Strange, it's never happened while I was alone.
I guess it's good to be back?
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[06 Sep 2005|05:58am]
I am Jack's lack of sleep.
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[03 Sep 2005|02:34pm]
Looking to sell this computer...

Processor: Intel Pentium 4, 3.0ghz, EM64T(64bit), 800mhz FSB, with Hyper Threading

Motherboard: Asus 64bit Pentium Compatable

Memory(RAM): 1GB of Corsair DDR2 533(PC2 4200) SDRAM

Hard Drive: 80GB Seagate Serial ATA

Optical Drive: Sony CD/DVD Burner

Video Card: ATI Radeon X800XL 256MB PCI Express VGA Card

Keyboard and Mouse: Microsoft Black Wireless Keyboard and Mouse

With a few additional fans and other accessories...
Plantronics Microphone
2 Aspire Case Fans(1x120mm 1x80mm)

The case looks like:

I also have a monitor to go with it if needed. It's just optional incase anyone doesn't have one already.
It's a 19" Samsung monitor and probably one of the best CRTs I've ever seen/owned. Can view an image of it here.
It would cost $250

My asking price for the computer is $1400. I built it myself so it costs considerably less than it would preassembled from a company. If you were to buy it whole from a company it would run anywhere from $1800-$2000.

If anyone is or knows anyone interested in purchasing a computer, please let me know and feel free to ask any questions about it.
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[22 Aug 2005|05:55am]
Deja Vu
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